Okay, I think I have had enough of trying to change everything at once. I am going to return to most of my “old” habits. I actually cancelled my last appointment with the nutritionist – not entirely though, I just changed the date. So my next appointment is in two weeks time on the 20th. These past four weeks I have been bouncing all about the place, even the slightest glance at anything “forbidden” send me spiralling out of control.
Can you imagine cheating your nutritionist with plain bread, or a tbsp of refined sugar in a skillet full of bell pepper?? I can and I did … and I payed the price for it, which was; thinking that now, since I cheated already I could just as well go all the way and have more bad stuff which I am usually not allowed. It was weird how I got from having sugar in my bell pepper, to devouring waffles or chocolate, or something. An office friend of mine told me to drop the nutritionist with the words – “She ain’t good for you Janet!”
Well, first of all … I am not going to drop her!! Well, to be honest, even if I wanted to get out, I don’t think I could get out of the contract I signed.
And seconds of all, I am not beat yet!!
So after three weeks of no progress, actually I took a few steps back I guess, I am starting with what I know and doing so meant also getting a new scale since Kaya peed my old one into oblivion. Yes, she actually peed on it and her urine went into the scale, and killed the display for good. 
Lovely cat, isn’t she. 
Anyway, so I ordered a new scale and am waiting for its arrival at the moment, I also ordered some cloth to get me motivated again and as of last Monday I am back on the wagon. All the changes she asked me to implement, the no salt, no sugar, no ice coffee and the forced times at which I am supposed to eat resulted in me hitting quite a few bumps on the road, to be exact I started craving things. Like crazy!!
The fact that I had to drop my ice coffee after work but at the same time refused to eat anything in its stead but had to wait until 6 pm before I was “allowed” to eat again caused hardcore cravings for me and I have to admit that I followed the cravings on quite a few occasions. Looks like I am still that old Janet from back when I started. It is quite sobering to see that I can easily fall back into old habits, even more so since I actually believed that I had changed beyond the point of breaking down again like that.
Anyway, since I have returned to my ice coffee I feel like I might be able to regain control. Oh and I also kicked the timing for my dinner. Now I start cooking when I get hungry and that’s it about that!!!
I had a talk with Ronny today and that made me fear that I might get to feel some heat from my nutritionist. Telling her that it was all too much … well, and that I returned to having ice coffee. I really feel the pressure at the moment since when it comes to weight-loss, I am the one who always wants to prove herself.
Well, we’ll see. Okay, what have I been up to recently. Lot’s of Red Cross is happening at the moment. Once I returned from work, I feed the cats, clean the litter box, then have about 20 minutes for my milk coffee before I change into my uniform and get going again. At the moment St. Martin is happening over here again, so we have processions every day. I was on duty Monday, Tuesday and today, Ronny and I are manning our small ambulance together and drive behind the procession in order to keep the following traffic from driving into the crowds.
Our small ambulance and Ronny
Lanterns at the side of the road
Also last weekend I instructed another first aid course for some Red Cross newbies, which turned out quite fun, despite me having to slap Torsten’s fingers since he kept interrupting my course.
Doing CPR with the help of a defibrillator
About the apartment for my parents, we are going to sign the contract on Monday. My parents will arrive on Sunday, stay over night and leave with the train after everything is settled.
Oh and by the way, after the realtor had called, telling me that we got the place, my sleeping problems disappeared and I haven’t had any further episodes of panic or alike and I hope it will stay this way. I am still going to make an appointment with my doctor to make sure since I am also interested to find out about my cholesterol levels due to all the meat I have been having these past few month. I will keep you updated on it and also try to become a regular writer again.
That’s it for today … ah one more thing, what do you guys think about the re-election of Obama, since I can only look at it from the outside, I would really like to hear about what you think.
Night folks!
I lost weight by giving up sugar and alcohol. Nothing else. And even then I still had the occasional drink and dessert. But only after I had lost the cravings.
All the other stuff like counting calories and timing meals and lo-carbs and exercising until you drop etc etc is a load of rubbish. It’s often pushed by the establishment so they can make a buck.
But you don’t need to spend a dime to lose weight. In fact, you should be saving a truck-load because you will no longer be snacking on junk food, drinking soft drink, eating desserts regularly, consuming fast food, or quaffing a lot of booze.
I know I make it sound easy but initially it’s bloody hard. Because sugar and alcohol are addictive.
What’s more, old habits die-hard AND the chemical reaction they produce make it extra difficult to kick them.
But it does become easier over time. Vigilance is still required to avoid relapse. Yet it isn’t as tricky once the sugar is out of your system.
I know I’m ranting a little but I want to reassure you that losing weight should not be some huge battle.
Yes it’s a fight. But one that can be won when you understand the rules of engagement.
And they are simply that sugar and alcohol are the enemies. Nothing else really. Not from a weight-loss point-of-view.
Feel free to ask me more. The detail in my journey is available at:
http://www.100days100ways.wordpress.com
Kim*
It’s a shame your nutritionist cannot read your post because isn’t she suppose to work WITH you? I think you know better what works for you and she should consult you.
Can kaya teach a lesson to that balance board of mine ?
Maybe the fact that your parents did not have a flat was putting more stress on you than you though. I am glad that you now sleep better!
Maybe Kaya knew that you hated your scale
It’s almost impossible to stick to a diet that’s too strict. I would think she would help you come up with a plan that you can keep to. It shouldn’t take an incredible amount of willpower to lose weight. Perhaps once you know the right foods that you should be eating (or avoiding) then you can create your own plan – one that you’ll be able to stick to and includes your coffee.
I wonder if Kaya knew what she was doing…. lol She probably thought she was helping you out!
Glad to hear you’re sleeping better! With your parents’ move behind you, hopefully things will continue to improve for you!
Janet, I miss reading your posts. Where have you been? I hope you are well. Please come back.