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I just came across this HBO series and thought it was quite thought-provoking and somewhat motivational. So here you go, another YouTube share.

Stigma: The Human Cost of Obesity

1. Consequences

2. Choices

3. Children in Crisis

4. Challenges

I am off to do my shores now, after all Mom and Dad will arrive tomorrow.

Enjoy your weekend everybody.

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Okay, I think I have had enough of trying to change everything at once. I am going to return to most of my “old” habits. I actually cancelled my last appointment with the nutritionist – not entirely though, I just changed the date. So my next appointment is in two weeks time on the 20th. These past four weeks I have been bouncing all about the place, even the slightest glance at anything “forbidden” send me spiralling out of control.

Can you imagine cheating your nutritionist with plain bread, or a tbsp of refined sugar in a skillet full of bell pepper?? I can and I did … and I payed the price for it, which was; thinking that now, since I cheated already I could just as well go all the way and have more bad stuff which I am usually not allowed. It was weird how I got from having sugar in my bell pepper, to devouring waffles or chocolate, or something. An office friend of mine told me to drop the nutritionist with the words – “She ain’t good for you Janet!”

Well, first of all … I am not going to drop her!! Well, to be honest, even if I wanted to get out, I don’t think I could get out of the contract I signed.

And seconds of all, I am not beat yet!!

So after three weeks of no progress, actually I took a few steps back I guess, I am starting with what I know and doing so meant also getting a new scale since Kaya peed my old one into oblivion. Yes, she actually peed on it and her urine went into the scale, and killed the display for good. 😦

Lovely cat, isn’t she. 😉

Anyway, so I ordered a new scale and am waiting for its arrival at the moment, I also ordered some cloth to get me motivated again and as of last Monday I am back on the wagon. All the changes she asked me to implement, the no salt, no sugar, no ice coffee and the forced times at which I am supposed to eat resulted in me hitting quite a few bumps on the road, to be exact I started craving things. Like crazy!!

The fact that I had to drop my ice coffee after work but at the same time refused to eat anything in its stead but had to wait until 6 pm before I was “allowed” to eat again caused hardcore cravings for me and I have to admit that I followed the cravings on quite a few occasions. Looks like I am still that old Janet from back when I started. It is quite sobering to see that I can easily fall back into old habits, even more so since I actually believed that I had changed beyond the point of breaking down again like that.

Anyway, since I have returned to my ice coffee I feel like I might be able to regain control. Oh and I also kicked the timing for my dinner. Now I start cooking when I get hungry and that’s it about that!!!

I had a talk with Ronny today and that made me fear that I might get to feel some heat from my nutritionist. Telling her that it was all too much … well, and that I returned to having ice coffee. I really feel the pressure at the moment since when it comes to weight-loss, I am the one who always wants to prove herself.

Well, we’ll see. Okay, what have I been up to recently. Lot’s of Red Cross is happening at the moment. Once I returned from work, I feed the cats, clean the litter box, then have about 20 minutes for my milk coffee before I change into my uniform and get going again. At the moment St. Martin is happening over here again, so we have processions every day. I was on duty Monday, Tuesday and today, Ronny and I are manning our small ambulance together and drive behind the procession in order to keep the following traffic from driving into the crowds.

Our small ambulance and Ronny

Lanterns at the side of the road

Also last weekend I instructed another first aid course for some Red Cross newbies, which turned out quite fun, despite me having to slap Torsten’s fingers since he kept interrupting my course.

Doing CPR with the help of a defibrillator

About the apartment for my parents, we are going to sign the contract on Monday. My parents will arrive on Sunday, stay over night and leave with the train after everything is settled.

Oh and by the way, after the realtor had called, telling me that we got the place, my sleeping problems disappeared and I haven’t had any further episodes of panic or alike and I hope it will stay this way. I am still going to make an appointment with my doctor to make sure since I am also interested to find out about my cholesterol levels due to all the meat I have been having these past few month. I will keep you updated on it and also try to become a regular writer again.

That’s it for today … ah one more thing, what do you guys think about the re-election of Obama, since I can only look at it from the outside, I would really like to hear about what you think.

Night folks!

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Ja, the weekend has been over for a few days now but it’s so stressful at the moment that I write once I have some time, so bear with me here.

Last Saturday I had a Red Cross training for my psychological attendant group and we did mental hygiene in that training. It was quite cool and actually just what I needed. How to get rid of all the bad things one piles up internally, should be useful in the long run.

We also did some mental exercises during the training. The inner garden, the peaceful place and the safe, are just some. The inner garden is a garden that you create in your mind, where you can return to whenever you feel like it, so is the peaceful place.

Basically you sit down straight but comfortable or in the Fiaker position, invented by the hackney carriage drivers in the last century. Basically you sit down, lean forward and place your elbows on you knees and let your head hang down. Then you concentrate on those places that you have created before and just spend some time there.

For us, who tried it for the first time, we sat down and then our instructor basically lead us through the steps of creating our garden, the peaceful place and the safe, or strong room.

I managed to create all of them and when we did our third exercise I was actually gone and had all forgotten about me being in class somewhere in Alfter, where the training was at. After the training was over I even managed to forget my food box with the yoghurt that I had brought as a snack. 😦

The food we got there was terribly salty, a concoction of potatoes, some mushrooms in a sauce and some meat covered by bread crumbs and then fried. The salad we had as a side dish was good but also way too salty. When I got home I was totally off my game and I don’t really know why, perhaps the fact that I didn’t have my snack, nor did I follow the timing of my food, might have had something to do with it. So I did not only fall back on having salt that day but have been having my struggles with anything sweet these past few days.

I know I should not only avoid salt, which has been working for me these past four days, since I got back on the salt-less challenge on Monday but should also stay away from anything sweet, which has been pushing my boundaries lately.

At the moment I feel like I am restraining myself 24/7 – no milk coffee!! I mean seriously NO MILK COFFEE!!!!!! This is killing me more than anything and to be honest I really broke that rule on three out of five days. If I don’t get a handle on this I am worried my next appointment with the nutritionist will turn out a tour de force. 😦

And the fact that people around me keep telling me that I am overdoing it and that there has to be some quality in life, is not helping much. I know I am being hard on myself big time but I also know that once I get the routine, I might be able to handle giving myself a break a little better.

Salt-less check but avoid carbs – I mean, I am not even allowed to have balsamic after 5 pm – mayor disaster I think!! Having a milk coffee can already trigger me going whatever. Having pineapple in my curry, forget it, sugar in my fried bell pepper? Don’t even think about it!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

But this is what I wanted, right?? Someone to tell me what I am doing wrong and this is what I got. It’s hilarious, I am paying to be tortured and putting myself under pressure to meet expectations 😉

Well, I guess I will make a trip to my inner garden in a moment to refocus and find my inner strength again.

Night to you all. 😉

Song if the day is Pumped up kicks from Foster the People

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Okay then, today was the first day that I tried to follow my nutritionists instructions of avoiding any and all salt when cooking and of course the no sugar rule.

“Spicing instead of salting” it says

And this is what I came up with. I actually checked Amazon for a book on this topic but was presented with spices instead. I am hoping to find cheaper options along the way but for now, after only dipping into the topic, almost 5 Euro per container must do. I actually bought one more container with a Asian mix but upon checking it at home – you have to understand that when I found it in the shop, all the way at the bottom of the rack I was so excited that I just grabbed one of each of them, that I didn’t check – I discovered that the Asian one does contain sugar. It’s the last item on the list but still it contains sugar so I am not going to use it until I have checked with my nutritionist.

Which brings me to the fact that I actually totally forgot to finish my story about being an emotional eater yesterday.

So here goes that story. I did talk to my nutritionist about the fact that I don’t need to eat at 4 pm, because I just wasn’t really hungry then but  that I REALLY love my ice coffee in the afternoon. I wanted her to agree that I could have my ice coffee instead of eating a small muesli or slice of bread with cream cheese or something. After all they both have about the same calorie value. She then asked me what the ice coffee is doing for me.

I tried to put it into words and then told her that the ice coffee for me symbolises the end of the working day, just something to make me calm down, relax and forget about the stress at work.

And CHA-BANG, that is when it dawned on me and looking at her face I saw from her expression that she realized that I realized – does that make sense?? Hahaha. 😉

So, hello my name is Janet and I am an emotional eater, (you are now supposed to say “Hello Janet”).

She then prompted another task to me, instead of focusing on the exact amounts and calories of what I eat, I am now supposed to write down how I feel before, during and after eating. This way we will hopefully figure out whether I am feeding my body or my soul.

What is quite cool about it, is the fact that I am going for another Red Cross training tomorrow which will be about how to deal and cope with psychological stress. Okay, it’s another Saturday where I can’t relax, since the boss of that unit – this is not my Red Cross unit boss Hassan, but the boss of the psychological attendant group Almut, where I am also involved – asked me, whether I would possibly like to become an instructor of that topic later, so I will have to stay focused all the way.

Anyway, let’s get back to my NO SALT challenge, which has started today by the way. Ops, anyone care to join me?? Feel free to do so. It’s only going to be a three-week challenge, so don’t worry about lacking salt after those three weeks cause there is a lot of salt in the rest of the food you are having on a daily basis. So feel free to join me.

I am totally excited to see whether my weight will reflect anything in three weeks time when my next appointment with the nutritionist is. After all I have scientific prove that I am retaining water.

So here is what I had today.

Chicken with no salt added and peas, carrots and corn. also unsalted. I used the spices you can see above

And, well … it was good. Different but okay. I guess I can get used to it.

That’s it for today people. I need to take a shower and then head for bed. A colleague is going to pick me up tomorrow at 8:15 am.

So night folks and sleep tight. 😉

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Ladies and Gentlemen,

I present to thee, another emotional eater!!!

Imagine my surprise, did I not always emphasise that I was a boredom eater more than anything?? Well, it turns out I am nothing special really … *sniff* uaaaaaahhhhh  – no, I am just an emotional eater and with a sweet tooth at that!

So, why am I telling you this?? Well, I had my second appointment with the nutritionist today but let me start at the beginning.

Work was hell again, Olga came by since her oldest son is in our company kindergarten and she has to drop him off during the week. Upon seeing all the chaos, she even offered to come in next week and end her vacation prematurely upon which I told her to just finish her vacation without any concern. I mean, I know that I am filling four positions at the moment but if I take a vacation I would also want to enjoy it all and not feel bad and come in early.

After all I still have one apprentice left to help me and it seems that I am slowly regaining control, little by little. I still have stuff lying around from Friday but that is only stuff which can wait a little longer.

Anyway, I stayed a little longer in the office since my appointment with the nutritionist was at 4 pm sharp and it only takes me 20 minutes to get there, so I left at 3:35 pm.

When I got there I still had a few minutes left to have another go at their celeb mags – no news about Ashton Kutcher and Demi Moore thins time 😉 – until she called me in. The receptionist offered me some water, which I declined mentioning that I am not going to drink now, after all I was here to be weighed-in. The nutritionist also offered me some water, which I declined with a laugh and when she asked why I laughed I explained to her again. So basically after that the first thing we did was weigh-in. 😉

Hold on though, before I stepped on the scale she asked me whether I thought that I had lost any weight and I replied that I wasn’t shure since my scale is not working but that I felt so. She replied that if I didn’t lose any weight she would know why.

BANG ! Well, okay then, let’s do it.

So I stepped on the scale with my belly full and cloth on.

Last time around, which was 2 1/2 weeks ago my weight was 253.6 lbs … and … now I am …. TADA!! 251 lbs!!!

HA, I got you, damn fat!!! I am declaring war on you, you damn %”&)=”(/%”$§=(?=!!!!

Oh, sorry for that outburst … err … well anyway, she then said something like “Oh, you did lose weight still, well …. that’s  ….errr good!”

She almost seemed disappointed that whatever she has discovered about my eating habits, didn’t prove her point. But hey, I don’t care, I am just happy I lost another 2.6 lbs.

Anyway,she then told me that she had discovered that the source from where I get my calorie information is obviously not precise and most of the time what I consumed amounts to more than I estimate it to be. For instance, I totally know that 3.3 oz of oats are something like 354 (or something) calories, then why did I enter them as 192 calories on Loseit!!! And obviously this wasn’t the only case of me underestimating the calories. So it’s fair to say, that when I thought that I had like 1300 calories for instance, the reality was that I actually had 1678 and the fact that I still lost weight with that amount of calories, surprised her. Do you remember that I told you guys that her fat distribution test estimated that I ONLY have 1540 calories per day… well it seems she is expecting it to be true and this explains her surprise at me still losing still weight.

Well, anyway, she also had a look at the last three days, during which I had to keep another precise food diary and upon seeing that I had pineapple in my chicken carrot curry one day and three tbsp of granulated sugar in my fried bell peppers on Monday, she exclaimed that I really can’t be without carbs, can I.

Well, I guess I somehow knew that – no, I totally knew that sugar and pineapple do have carbs but I guess I just haven’t yet fully comprehended the NO CARBS AFTER 5 PM RULE. I guess I thought that this “little” wouldn’t harm, right. Well obviously she thought different.

Anyway, after me asking lots and lots of questions, which I will elaborate on in a moment, we came up with the plan of me avoiding any and all salt when cooking for the time being, have no more than one egg in one go and stay clear of anything sugar or sugar-like – for instance my beloved ice coffee for instance… 😦

No more ice coffee – check!

No more salt … err, che …, err – check!

That will be a difficult one, so I need your help here, since I just can’t imagine just not salting my dinner. So throw some spices at me, can you?

Now, for the questions I asked her…

  • What fat should be in my milk, quark or yoghurt?

Milk should have 1.5%, Yoghurt can have either 0.1% or 1.5% and quark should be most meager

  • What bread to eat?

Get your bread from a very good and expensive I might add baker, that doesn’t add extra sugar or salt in the bread. The normal bread you get at your grocery usually has added salt and sugar in it.

  • Light sodas?

Have no more than one glass each day, drop the habit altogether if possible. Having it every now and then is okay but don’t have it as a regular source of liquid

  • Cream cheese is low carb – YAY!!!!
  • Retaining water?

Avoid salt and buy better whole wheat bread

  • Drinking massive amounts of water helps you lose weight?

Not true! Water fills your belly and might keep you full for some time but the once it’s gone you might crave since your blood sugar levels will get very low when not eating properly, which then again causes cravings. Also too much water is also not good for your kidneys and I am talking about more than 3 liters here,

  • Tee outside food times?

Yes you can. 😉 Only keep it unsweetened

  • Are there any no go’s with what you eat?

NO!!

  • How to cope with high stress days, concerning food, like no time and alike?

Prepare your food in advance, never leave your place without the food you need that day.

  • Should you follow your plan and eat even though you are not hungry?

Yes, please do, this also helps avoid cravings and keeps your mineral and vitamin intake in order

Okay people, it’s time for me to get ready for bed. Tomorrow is the last day of work this week, yay, so happy.

Stay strong people, we can all do it. 😉

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Yes, it’s done!! My weekend shifts have officially come to an end this very day.

The last 5 weeks my weekends have been cut short by one day, leaving only Sunday to relax and be free. I managed to get almost all the stuff done which has accumulated since Sonja, one of my colleagues, got sick. I spend 4 Saturdays at work and one Saturday teaching LSM in English. Now all that is left to do is file it all, since I managed to get it all prepared. Everything but 10 files or so are ready to be closed and filed for good.

It was fun though, coming in on a Saturday and be all alone in my building. Well almost all alone – there were at least two occasions when I had a scare when a security guy came in and turned off all the lights without me noticing. Two weeks ago when I worked on a Saturday, I went to the bathroom and upon exiting the bathroom – and I was in there only for 2 minutes – all the lights had been turned off.

I froze and looked towards the filing room and the light that was supposed to emanate from that room wasn’t there. Just wasn’t there, then I realized that the lights in the hallway were also off and I remember mumbling to myself that it was supposed to be on, and didn’t I turn it on? Yes I did!! I slowly walked to the corner leading to the file room and saw that someone had turned off the lights and left the room staring back at me in utter darkness but I couldn’t hear anyone. I was alone in the building. I didn’t even hear the sounds of a door closing. That was quite scary, obviously the security guy had been walking quite fast.

Last day alone at work

Anyway, so I am quite happy that this is over with. Unfortunately I won’t have the time to relax tomorrow since Hassan convinced Ronny and me to take up an assignment tomorrow the entire day. I won’t even able to sleep in, well I guess I can sleep in a little. I need to be at the vehicle hall at 8:30 am, so I should be up by seven the latest, feed the cats and get ready.

Oh by the way, Kaya has now started peeing on my hall and bathroom floor for a change but she didn’t stop purging either, it’s not as often but now she started peeing and on purpose I might say. I have the feeling that if I don’t react to her begging for “human” food, she shows me her discontent by parading into the hall or bathroom,  meowing loudly and then peeing. When I followed her today, I caught her in the act. I couldn’t believe it, so I took her and put her into the litter box, which didn’t seem to bother her the tiniest bit.

I guess I should be happy that she is at least doing it where there is no carpet. Ah well, she never ceases to amaze me.

Oh and by the way, the changes my nutritionist advised me to implement are not as easy on me as I anticipated. I am having problems with the times. Well, I guess these past 8 month I have been eating whenever I felt like it and if I felt a little hunger and didn’t want to eat yet, I would just have a coffee or tea with milk. Now, that I am not allowed to have coffee with milk outside of food times, everything has been turned up side down and I have been stumbling a few times. I didn’t eat anything real bad but also haven’t managed to have meat or fish every day as she advised me to.

Chicken carrot curry

Today was actually the first day since Tuesday, that I managed to have meat, I had a chicken carrot curry from a recipe I found online.

Chicken carrot curry low carb

  • 10 oz of vegetable broth
  • 175 gr. of chicken
  • 150 gr. of carrots
  • 2 1/2 slices of pineapple
  • 100 gr. of cream cheese light
  • 3 tbsp of pineapple juice
  • Curry, salt pepper

Here is how you do it.

Clean and chop up the carrots and cook them in the broth until tender. In the meantime cut the chicken and fry it in a skillet. Cut up the pineapple and add it to the chicken, when done. Use only three tbsp of the vegetable broth when adding the carrots to the chicken. Add the pineapple juice, spices and cream cheese to the skillet and stir well.

And et voila, done. It was quite nice and I really liked it. I didn’t yet have time to figure out how many carbs are in the pineapple or cream cheese but will have to do so before cooking it again. Well, I searched for low carb recipes when I found that recipe but I am not sure I trust it.

Anyway, tomorrow will be another day where I basically have no control as to what and when I will be eating since I am going to be on duty and I am not sure there will be food offered at all.

Oh before I forget it. Just imagine, I wanted to check my weight yesterday and guess what … my scale is not working *haha* it’s either the batteries or the thing is broken. How ironic is that?? 😉 But I am quite okay with it not working. I will ignore the scale for the next 2 weeks until my next appointment with the nutritionist and then decide whether I want to use it again.

Okay then, I am going to bed now, need to sleep.

You all sleep tight people.

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Yesterday evening I tried the nut muesli for the first time – I know it contains carbs and I had it after 7 pm actually but I just couldn’t bring myself to cook something, so in order to avoid not eating I ended up checking out my new breakfast choice, nut museli without fruit.

It’s susposed to be 60 grams, so I weighed 60 grams and added 200 ml of 1.5% milk and ate it with a small spoon … and, well, it was good and oddly enough, it got me satisfied.

So this morning and grabbed my old and rather bad food scale and weighed all the food for the day and this is what I ate today… by the way, I don’t intend to blog all my food choices every day, just occationally.

New rules!!

Concerning liquits; I had, let’s see.

The milk coffee this morning, a little later one mug of coffee, then 2 mugs of rooibos tea with each 2 teaspoons of powdered milk. 1 1/2 liters of water at work. At home I had one glass of pepsi light – I am allowing myself only one glass max at the moment but I am sure soon, once my light soda stock is gone, which might take me a week or two, since I am only having one glass each day, I am not going to buy any new light sodas and stick to water, tea and coffee only.

I know that by then I will be able to do it. I might every now and then have a diet soda outside but I will no more buy a whole bottle for my fridge or anything.

So that was my first day with the new food choices, apart from that I am working hard on finding a new flat for my parents here in Bonn. Since Leuscherath, where they used to live up until May this year, didn’t work out, due to the rent getting too high, Nordwalde not working out and also no flat has been found in Meerbusch where my Mom is with my cousine at the moment, the decision was made that Bonn will be it.

By the way, my Dad is with my younger sister and her husband Bernd in Nordwalde at the moment, until he will be picked up for the health retreat next week.

Anyway, at the moment there are several flats that I have applied for and one looks quite promising if all goes well.

All the way in the back, that’s the Kottenforst by the way…

This would be the view from their kitchen window and balcony if “prettypleeeeease” all goes well. I was able to get into that flat last week Wednesday.

I haven’t been able to get into the other places since they are still occupied at the moment. So I am basically checking out this and that, rush to the townhall, to get this and that and my brain is busy with this and that as well.

Three more weeks and the desicion will be made and in the meantime I will have to continue looking and find a place in my part of town which is Bonn – Friesdorf. I just pray it won’t take too long because it’s been quite some time since my Mom had her own kitchen to sit in.

Anyway, that’s it for today.

Sleep tight everyone. 😉

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