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Okay, I think I have had enough of trying to change everything at once. I am going to return to most of my “old” habits. I actually cancelled my last appointment with the nutritionist – not entirely though, I just changed the date. So my next appointment is in two weeks time on the 20th. These past four weeks I have been bouncing all about the place, even the slightest glance at anything “forbidden” send me spiralling out of control.

Can you imagine cheating your nutritionist with plain bread, or a tbsp of refined sugar in a skillet full of bell pepper?? I can and I did … and I payed the price for it, which was; thinking that now, since I cheated already I could just as well go all the way and have more bad stuff which I am usually not allowed. It was weird how I got from having sugar in my bell pepper, to devouring waffles or chocolate, or something. An office friend of mine told me to drop the nutritionist with the words – “She ain’t good for you Janet!”

Well, first of all … I am not going to drop her!! Well, to be honest, even if I wanted to get out, I don’t think I could get out of the contract I signed.

And seconds of all, I am not beat yet!!

So after three weeks of no progress, actually I took a few steps back I guess, I am starting with what I know and doing so meant also getting a new scale since Kaya peed my old one into oblivion. Yes, she actually peed on it and her urine went into the scale, and killed the display for good. 😦

Lovely cat, isn’t she. 😉

Anyway, so I ordered a new scale and am waiting for its arrival at the moment, I also ordered some cloth to get me motivated again and as of last Monday I am back on the wagon. All the changes she asked me to implement, the no salt, no sugar, no ice coffee and the forced times at which I am supposed to eat resulted in me hitting quite a few bumps on the road, to be exact I started craving things. Like crazy!!

The fact that I had to drop my ice coffee after work but at the same time refused to eat anything in its stead but had to wait until 6 pm before I was “allowed” to eat again caused hardcore cravings for me and I have to admit that I followed the cravings on quite a few occasions. Looks like I am still that old Janet from back when I started. It is quite sobering to see that I can easily fall back into old habits, even more so since I actually believed that I had changed beyond the point of breaking down again like that.

Anyway, since I have returned to my ice coffee I feel like I might be able to regain control. Oh and I also kicked the timing for my dinner. Now I start cooking when I get hungry and that’s it about that!!!

I had a talk with Ronny today and that made me fear that I might get to feel some heat from my nutritionist. Telling her that it was all too much … well, and that I returned to having ice coffee. I really feel the pressure at the moment since when it comes to weight-loss, I am the one who always wants to prove herself.

Well, we’ll see. Okay, what have I been up to recently. Lot’s of Red Cross is happening at the moment. Once I returned from work, I feed the cats, clean the litter box, then have about 20 minutes for my milk coffee before I change into my uniform and get going again. At the moment St. Martin is happening over here again, so we have processions every day. I was on duty Monday, Tuesday and today, Ronny and I are manning our small ambulance together and drive behind the procession in order to keep the following traffic from driving into the crowds.

Our small ambulance and Ronny

Lanterns at the side of the road

Also last weekend I instructed another first aid course for some Red Cross newbies, which turned out quite fun, despite me having to slap Torsten’s fingers since he kept interrupting my course.

Doing CPR with the help of a defibrillator

About the apartment for my parents, we are going to sign the contract on Monday. My parents will arrive on Sunday, stay over night and leave with the train after everything is settled.

Oh and by the way, after the realtor had called, telling me that we got the place, my sleeping problems disappeared and I haven’t had any further episodes of panic or alike and I hope it will stay this way. I am still going to make an appointment with my doctor to make sure since I am also interested to find out about my cholesterol levels due to all the meat I have been having these past few month. I will keep you updated on it and also try to become a regular writer again.

That’s it for today … ah one more thing, what do you guys think about the re-election of Obama, since I can only look at it from the outside, I would really like to hear about what you think.

Night folks!

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Oh my, this morning I was totally contemplating whether to go to work or not but I am happy I decided to go after all.

Something weird happened last night – I think – I am not sure though, did I dream?? Anyway, I think I jumped out of bed, took two steps into my living room, turned around once, looking right and left and then went back into bed.

So – either I am suffering from panic attacks or something might be wrong with my heart. You guys remember that I mentioned before, that I would experience this weird sensation just moments before falling asleep. I would hear my heartbeat extremely loud in my ears and then be wide awake right away.

I think I experienced some extreme version of it last night because I clearly remember jumping out of bed, wander around shortly and then return to bed … but then again I am not sure whether it was a dream after all.

So this got me a little concerned, after all I have been suffering from stomach pains for month now and stomach pains can also have meaning in that regard, so I called my doctor today but had no luck. She is on vacation until Friday and I don’t want to go to the hospital and ask them for a 24 hour ECG, cause they won’t do it. Also the doctor who is substituting for her won’t do it either, since he/she is not my doctor.

I am thinking it’s only stress but it has been going on for 2 month now, so being a medic, I should most certainly stop ignoring and figure out what’s going on. The thing is, my stress should now come to an end since I got the call today!! People, we have the apartment for my parents!!! YAY!!!

But let me start at the beginning …

Okay, my older sister and Mom arrived around 3 pm on Sunday. I had prepared some cauliflower pizza, we  ate together and they all loved it. Afterwards Nicky left again and Mom and I went for a walk. I showed her the street where the new apartment would be situated and we walked into Friesdorf, where my parents would have to do their shopping.

Only 10 minutes walk from the place there is a swimming bath, 2 banks, 2 supermarkets, bakeries, pharmacies, a post office, kiosk and bus stops going to either Bonn or Bad Godesberg. She was a little overwhelmed I think but that is totally understandable, after all she spend the last 6 years in a village with only 6 buildings or so. We then walked back and talked about my cousin and her children, where Mom is staying at the moment. Oh, by the way, Dad has returned from his stay at the health spa, so he is staying there too at the moment.

Once we returned we had dinner – which is usually bread here in Germany. I went along with it and had 2 slices of bread with cheese. Then we had lots and lots of tea and talked and talked and talked until we eventually went to bed. I prepared my bed on the ground, while my Mom took the bed. Much to my surprise, Shorty follow me and took his usual spot next to my head, only this time he was a little confused about the location I guess. 😉

Kaya on the other hand decided to stay away and spend the night on the cat tree.

Despite the heater being on and the window closed, I got up in the middle of the night and tuned up the heater all the way, I was so cold … but hey, no incident that night. 😉

Anyway, the next morning after breakfast we went to Friesdorf again and did some shopping and spend the rest of the day talking and waiting. Waiting fo 3:30pm, when we could eventually get going and meet the realtor/landlord.

We also checked the site of the realtor and were shocked to find that the apartment he had invited us to look at, had been published – how dumb of us, we had thought that we were the only one to look at the place. No, we were not, there were 3 women and one man also interested in that flat and while my Mom was so excited and ready to basically show all her cards at once, I tried to signal her to wait with the “real” questions until the rest of them were gone.

The apartment was still furnished since the old lady who had lived there before, had been transferred to a nursing home only a couple of days before that. It was obvious that nothing had been done in that apartment for a while, like renovating. The wallpaper was yellowed and seemed as if it had been brought in the 70’s. So the place was in no good condition. By the way, here in Germany you don’t move into furnished apartments, when you move in, there is nothing in there, you basically always have to bring all your own stuff, even the kitchen. So you move into empty rooms, whenever you move. You can make a deal with the previous tenant and buy their kitchen if  they offer to sell it but if the old tenant wants to take his or her kitchen along you are forced to either make your own kitchen fit into the new rooms or buy a new kitchen.

Anyway, after the other people were gone we talked business and my Mom decided to take it. He said he would call me today and we then left.

We then took a cab to Bad Godesberg, had a Latte Macchiato in front of my Red Cross unit’s house and I then we walked to the train station and I took care she would get a seat in the train, since it was after work rush hour.

I felt a little bad leaving her in the train but I had to work today and spending another 40 € to accompany her and then take the train back to Bonn again would have been a little too much.

I took the bus back home but got off at Ronnie’s place and spend another 90 minutes at his place before I eventually walked home again. I took a shower, grabbed my cats and was off to bed.

This morning I had only arrived at work when I got a bunch of calls. First the head of my psychological attendant group called, informing me that I would be somehow responsible for organising the upcoming meetings of the group, since she would be on vacation for 4 weeks. Then my Red Cross unit boss called talking to me about the upcoming First Aid course this weekend and the assignments for St. Martin in the next week.

And then came the call I had been waiting for – the realtor!!

WE HAVE THE APARTMENT !!!

We decided to meet again on the 12th to sign the contract, so I am taking off that day again since my parents will both arrive on the 11th, stay over night and then take the train back after everything is done. Also some more good news, the realtor is going to give us 14 days to do the renovations and moving without having the pay rent. So in December – we can start renovating on December 1st – they will only have to pay half the rent.

YAY!!!

So, this X-Mas, they will have their own place and all will be good. Hopefully. 😉

I am off to bed now, real tired. Everybody on the east cost – God bless and be safe.

Night folks.

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Okay then, today was the first day that I tried to follow my nutritionists instructions of avoiding any and all salt when cooking and of course the no sugar rule.

“Spicing instead of salting” it says

And this is what I came up with. I actually checked Amazon for a book on this topic but was presented with spices instead. I am hoping to find cheaper options along the way but for now, after only dipping into the topic, almost 5 Euro per container must do. I actually bought one more container with a Asian mix but upon checking it at home – you have to understand that when I found it in the shop, all the way at the bottom of the rack I was so excited that I just grabbed one of each of them, that I didn’t check – I discovered that the Asian one does contain sugar. It’s the last item on the list but still it contains sugar so I am not going to use it until I have checked with my nutritionist.

Which brings me to the fact that I actually totally forgot to finish my story about being an emotional eater yesterday.

So here goes that story. I did talk to my nutritionist about the fact that I don’t need to eat at 4 pm, because I just wasn’t really hungry then but  that I REALLY love my ice coffee in the afternoon. I wanted her to agree that I could have my ice coffee instead of eating a small muesli or slice of bread with cream cheese or something. After all they both have about the same calorie value. She then asked me what the ice coffee is doing for me.

I tried to put it into words and then told her that the ice coffee for me symbolises the end of the working day, just something to make me calm down, relax and forget about the stress at work.

And CHA-BANG, that is when it dawned on me and looking at her face I saw from her expression that she realized that I realized – does that make sense?? Hahaha. 😉

So, hello my name is Janet and I am an emotional eater, (you are now supposed to say “Hello Janet”).

She then prompted another task to me, instead of focusing on the exact amounts and calories of what I eat, I am now supposed to write down how I feel before, during and after eating. This way we will hopefully figure out whether I am feeding my body or my soul.

What is quite cool about it, is the fact that I am going for another Red Cross training tomorrow which will be about how to deal and cope with psychological stress. Okay, it’s another Saturday where I can’t relax, since the boss of that unit – this is not my Red Cross unit boss Hassan, but the boss of the psychological attendant group Almut, where I am also involved – asked me, whether I would possibly like to become an instructor of that topic later, so I will have to stay focused all the way.

Anyway, let’s get back to my NO SALT challenge, which has started today by the way. Ops, anyone care to join me?? Feel free to do so. It’s only going to be a three-week challenge, so don’t worry about lacking salt after those three weeks cause there is a lot of salt in the rest of the food you are having on a daily basis. So feel free to join me.

I am totally excited to see whether my weight will reflect anything in three weeks time when my next appointment with the nutritionist is. After all I have scientific prove that I am retaining water.

So here is what I had today.

Chicken with no salt added and peas, carrots and corn. also unsalted. I used the spices you can see above

And, well … it was good. Different but okay. I guess I can get used to it.

That’s it for today people. I need to take a shower and then head for bed. A colleague is going to pick me up tomorrow at 8:15 am.

So night folks and sleep tight. 😉

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No, I am still here but it has been a little stressful these past week or so.

Now, what did I do? 8 days ago I went for a Red Cross duty next to the American school in the Rheinaue with Ronny. Weirdly enough it was a cricket event organised by a very nice Indian gentleman, I think his first name was Raymond. Nothing really happened and to be honest I am quite happy that nothing happened because those cricket balls are hit with quite some force. Raymond proved it by showing us his left hand ring finger that had been deformed by laying cricket for years and getting hit on a few occasions.

Hardly anyone around but that is due to the fact that hardly ever anybody plays cricket over here.

Actually us being there was weird because there were hardly 50 people playing the entire day.

Onur came to visit and brought some coffee from McDonald’s. Onur is the guy, whose army swearing-in I missed due to the problems with my father. But I think he forgave me. He is a great guy and will become a great doctor once he finishes his studies with the army.

Onur and me

I brought all my food for that day, had my muesli at home and brought all the rest along, so it’s fair to say that I managed to have a very good day food-wise.

We finished the assignment around 6:30 pm.

6:30 pm, eventually the games ended

Monday I went back to work. Sonja, my colleague who is fighting cancer at the moment came to visit and told us that she is still going to be on sick leave until January next year. I hope the best for her since cancer cells have also been found in her liver. Her brain is yet free of any cells – basically she is standing were my aunt was standing three years ago only she didn’t win. So I can only pray that Sonja will fight through it.

Then Jens, my other colleague called later that day and told me that he is also going to be sick for some more time. He has been sick for 4 weeks and it seems that something is wrong with his heart, which might make a surgery necessary, which would then again mean that he would also not come back this year. Gee, people seems to be dropping like flies around me. Olga is on vacation at the moment, which basically means that I am all alone for the next 2 weeks.

I also have had a sick day last week Thursday and had a day off on Friday, so I haven’t been in the office for 2 days, so when I returned to work today – well, let’s say it was bad. Fortunately I am still having 2 apprentices who are helping as much as they can at the moment.

The fact that apprentices have to help might mean more problems further down the way but there is nothing else I can do about it.

My boss even called today to ask how things are going and he did neither know about Jens sickness, nor about Sonja being on further sick leave until January. I do not believe that Sonja will be back next year, since several chemo do take a toll on the body, so I don’t believe that we will work at full power any time soon.

Anyway, last Tuesday I went for one of the first Carnival assignments with Ronny and Matthias, another friend. A band called Jodesberger Jungens was on performing, basically carnival music and it was quite nice.

Setting up the treatment area, first aid backpack, defibrillator and oxygen

That assignment ended at 1 am I think.

Getting less crowded

We didn’t have anything to do during that evening either but I was quite tired upon returning home because that day I just didn’t eat enough. I took on that assignment without preparation. Ronny asked me, when I had just returned from work. Food choices were good but just not enough.

Anyway, then on Wednesday, October 3rd was a public holiday here in Germany. This holiday has been created because of the German reunion. So I relaxed and had a nice and quite day. Tuesday I didn’t feel so good and came up with a stomach ache and some migraine. I guess that I just didn’t drink enough the previous day.

Also the entire last week I have been quite busy with sending stuff to the landlord of the place that I looked at some time ago. Doing this and that and getting this and that for my parents. I am quite stressed about getting the flat and have been having sleeping problems again recently. Like last night I turned and turned in my bed until it was almost 2 am – it’s obvious that I ended up oversleeping.

Oh and before I forget it, on Friday I went for the RingCon 11 in the Maritim hotel. The assignment started at 9 am and ended – well for me at least – at 1 am. Philip, the colleague I was there with actually stayed the entire night.

Craig Parker (he is in Spartacus and also acted in The Legend of the Seeker) and Mark Ferguson were there again – they are always so funny together. Jason Momoa (Stargate Atlantis, Game of Thrones) also attended and even Sean Astin (LotR – Samwise Gamshee).

Mistfits and one Zombie … 😉

Anyway but the best part for me, was this. 😉

We always help, even biting patients 😉

That’s it for today then, tomorrow I hope to write again. 🙂

Night folks!

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Yes, it’s done!! My weekend shifts have officially come to an end this very day.

The last 5 weeks my weekends have been cut short by one day, leaving only Sunday to relax and be free. I managed to get almost all the stuff done which has accumulated since Sonja, one of my colleagues, got sick. I spend 4 Saturdays at work and one Saturday teaching LSM in English. Now all that is left to do is file it all, since I managed to get it all prepared. Everything but 10 files or so are ready to be closed and filed for good.

It was fun though, coming in on a Saturday and be all alone in my building. Well almost all alone – there were at least two occasions when I had a scare when a security guy came in and turned off all the lights without me noticing. Two weeks ago when I worked on a Saturday, I went to the bathroom and upon exiting the bathroom – and I was in there only for 2 minutes – all the lights had been turned off.

I froze and looked towards the filing room and the light that was supposed to emanate from that room wasn’t there. Just wasn’t there, then I realized that the lights in the hallway were also off and I remember mumbling to myself that it was supposed to be on, and didn’t I turn it on? Yes I did!! I slowly walked to the corner leading to the file room and saw that someone had turned off the lights and left the room staring back at me in utter darkness but I couldn’t hear anyone. I was alone in the building. I didn’t even hear the sounds of a door closing. That was quite scary, obviously the security guy had been walking quite fast.

Last day alone at work

Anyway, so I am quite happy that this is over with. Unfortunately I won’t have the time to relax tomorrow since Hassan convinced Ronny and me to take up an assignment tomorrow the entire day. I won’t even able to sleep in, well I guess I can sleep in a little. I need to be at the vehicle hall at 8:30 am, so I should be up by seven the latest, feed the cats and get ready.

Oh by the way, Kaya has now started peeing on my hall and bathroom floor for a change but she didn’t stop purging either, it’s not as often but now she started peeing and on purpose I might say. I have the feeling that if I don’t react to her begging for “human” food, she shows me her discontent by parading into the hall or bathroom,  meowing loudly and then peeing. When I followed her today, I caught her in the act. I couldn’t believe it, so I took her and put her into the litter box, which didn’t seem to bother her the tiniest bit.

I guess I should be happy that she is at least doing it where there is no carpet. Ah well, she never ceases to amaze me.

Oh and by the way, the changes my nutritionist advised me to implement are not as easy on me as I anticipated. I am having problems with the times. Well, I guess these past 8 month I have been eating whenever I felt like it and if I felt a little hunger and didn’t want to eat yet, I would just have a coffee or tea with milk. Now, that I am not allowed to have coffee with milk outside of food times, everything has been turned up side down and I have been stumbling a few times. I didn’t eat anything real bad but also haven’t managed to have meat or fish every day as she advised me to.

Chicken carrot curry

Today was actually the first day since Tuesday, that I managed to have meat, I had a chicken carrot curry from a recipe I found online.

Chicken carrot curry low carb

  • 10 oz of vegetable broth
  • 175 gr. of chicken
  • 150 gr. of carrots
  • 2 1/2 slices of pineapple
  • 100 gr. of cream cheese light
  • 3 tbsp of pineapple juice
  • Curry, salt pepper

Here is how you do it.

Clean and chop up the carrots and cook them in the broth until tender. In the meantime cut the chicken and fry it in a skillet. Cut up the pineapple and add it to the chicken, when done. Use only three tbsp of the vegetable broth when adding the carrots to the chicken. Add the pineapple juice, spices and cream cheese to the skillet and stir well.

And et voila, done. It was quite nice and I really liked it. I didn’t yet have time to figure out how many carbs are in the pineapple or cream cheese but will have to do so before cooking it again. Well, I searched for low carb recipes when I found that recipe but I am not sure I trust it.

Anyway, tomorrow will be another day where I basically have no control as to what and when I will be eating since I am going to be on duty and I am not sure there will be food offered at all.

Oh before I forget it. Just imagine, I wanted to check my weight yesterday and guess what … my scale is not working *haha* it’s either the batteries or the thing is broken. How ironic is that?? 😉 But I am quite okay with it not working. I will ignore the scale for the next 2 weeks until my next appointment with the nutritionist and then decide whether I want to use it again.

Okay then, I am going to bed now, need to sleep.

You all sleep tight people.

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I am in awe at what my glasses have accomplished, after only wearing them for 5 hours. I am also in awe, how I managed to get through the last few month without wearing them.

Yesterday, the employee from Fielmann asked me for my mobile number and told me that I would get a message when the glasses we done and to my surprise I actually got the message today already. It was around 2 pm when I got a message saying that my glasses were finished – after one day??? WOOHOO!!!

So, I fed the cats and then got going again to pick up my glasses and pay for them – unfortunately. 😦

I would have liked to avoid that … well but of course I had to pay. 139€ all in all and after one day, that’s quite alright, isn’t it?

Anyway, here is me. With glasses and a more flattering angle. 😉

I guess if you look real hard you are still able to see that the left eye has stronger glass but only if you look real hard. 😉

I returned home and started wearing the glasses right away and oh, the moment I took them off things became a little blurry and more difficult to focus on and I felt like blinking right away. So cool!!

It’s not at all hard to look through the glass and it does not feel the slightest bit tiresome to wear them. I am quite happy I eventually got it done!!

Kevin called me soon after to meet at Villa Verde, a restaurant near by, to have a coffee and talk about some stuff that has been going on in his life. Torsten my teaching colleague dropped by as well and we enjoyed the coffee and talked about all kinds of stuff. Kevin wants to take his medic status a step higher, which would result in him being allowed to inject syringes and alike. I am quite excited for him.

I neither have the desire, nor the time to better my medic status because, the higher your status the more stuff you have to do in emergencies. I am quite fine at not sticking IV’s into people. 😉

Anyway, here is what I had yesterday.

DAY 78

Okay, that’s it for today – my eyes are not as tired as yesterday, actually they fell great but I need to get out of bed early tomorrow, so I’ll be going to bed now. 😉

Sleep tight everyone.

By the way there is a big fair going on this weekend and I am hoping to go there at least once this weekend, I hope Hassan, my RC unit boss will offer to take me there for free and with some of my RC colleagues. Would be so cool. We did it last year and it was really nice. I mean the public transportation will be overcrowded and since I don’t want to go alone, it would be nice to have Hassan take us. 😉

Night y’all.

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That wagon?? Whose wagon??

Well, mine!!

I think I have been semiconscious these past three days, which resulted in a hormone induced blockage of those parts of my brain that coordinate the release of guilt, if I ever get to close to something that I know I shouldn’t eat. Oh yeah, there was nothing of that kind going through my system these past few days.

I could make it easy on myself and just say that it was TOM and most likely I would be correct to some extent since I have been feeling so bad from Monday to Tuesday, that I actually had to stay home, due to all the pain and side effect of good old TOM.

But … so far I have always been well able to ignore TOM’s urges when it comes to food and the time of month but this time I actually crushed down heavily and the crush site is not pretty. Waffles and haribo sweets massacred my good intentions on Monday and Tuesday.

I guess I am lucky that on Monday I only had a hand full of gummy bears and therefore my weigh-in didn’t suffer from it – but Tuesday was a totally other story. I stumbled across a small box of waffles, which had been sitting in my kitchen cupboard for three-month now. I had bought them before I changed my diet some 9 weeks ago and intended to have them as snack – only I never wanted to take them to work because they were 300 calories each I think.

OMG and I had 4 of them over the course of yesterday.

I guess I need a system reboot. 🙂

Since I am totally going to deny you the option to see my total failure Monday and Tuesday by posting what I had those days and I the fact that I most certainly don’t want to get a glimpse at all the calories that I had these 2 days, Monday and Tuesday have been deleted from my memory.

Actually I don’t really know what I am talking about here, if you get my drift. 😉

Anyway, so let me just blog about what my weigh-in yesterday was all about.

My weight yesterday was less than the week before, which makes me doubt my sanity in the first place, why would I fall off the wagon, after a good result??

So, last weeks weight was 253.6 lbs. Yesterday I was at 252.3 lbs, that is a loss of 1.3 lbs. So yay, to last week and shame for the next to come. I am sure I will have destroyed my chance of a loss for next week.

Well, I most certainly deserve what I get.

Anyway, I am off for now, since I need to pick up Kevin and drive by the theatre to pick up our Red Cross medic bag to get it checked for the coming theatre season, starting next week.

I stayed within my calorie allowance today, so that’s one step towards my wagon again.

All is a tiny bit well.

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